Let me say it again: life will get you down, if you let it. Maybe not if you're an eternal optimist but truth be told, I don't really know people like that. And I don't see any shame in starting to feel your resolve weaken when you're out of work, gaining no tangible or personal sense of accomplishment from your studies, having to deal with petty office politics, wanting more time with your kid then struggling to be patient and engaging when you do, feeling generally tired, unmotivated, listless... only to receive a bill for $3000 during a particularly broke period.
As someone who has a susceptibility to depression, many milder stresses have caused me much greater grief in the past, but these days I am really trying to direct my focus away from the difficulties I'm experiencing (or think I'm experiencing) and more importantly, trying not to inflate and magnify these difficulties into overwhelming and unmanageable proportions. I don't mean for this to turn into some condescending Zen self-help dogma. Life can be really fucking difficult at times.
But I am finding more and more this desire from within to swim against the current, and not just let myself get washed away like I so often used to do.
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