SLEEPLESS NIGHTS

I would kill for a decent night's sleep. For a few weeks now, I've been waking up every three hours or so in the night, and feel wide awake. It takes a while to fall asleep again, and the sleep is never very deep because I'm constantly rolling from side to side (the roll is more like a three-point turn these days) trying to get comfortable, or trying to get the baby to stop kicking me or lying on my bladder. I feel like a wreck. I am barely cognisant most days. I feel down, I have burst into tears at the slightest emotional provocation - the other night I cried for half an hour after seeing the delivery of a premature baby on Offspring (a fictional show). It's like all the PMS I've missed from the past six months has finally caught up with me. If I read one more cheesy line about how the upshot to all this is At least you'll be prepared for when the baby comes!, I might vomit.

I'm sorry to whinge. I am keenly aware that in pregnancy, if you and the baby are both healthy and everything is going along according to plan, there is little worth complaining about. In the spirit of being honest though, I think it's important to document the vast range of experiences, not just the good ones. I don't take my or my baby's health for granted. I'm just tired.